I was listening to a sermon by Rolland Baker (IRIS Ministries) and he was speaking about how crucial it is to rest. He was talking about how on those nights where everyone is on the floor having Holy Ghost time, that a lot of people who are on the outside looking in are concerned about what the results are of such an experience. I was surprised when Rolland shared that he is more interested in the experience than the results. He reiterated that he is more interested in a person feeling what it's like to be loved on by God. Between laughs he quoted John Wesley "Rush isn't of the devil, it is the devil."
      This sermon really touched me because for me the Christian life has always equaled 'action, action, action, and do something now and every day!' As I continued listening to the ministering of Rolland, I began thinking about how easy it has been for me to just rush and not take time to rest. 
I used to not understand the idea of ministers taking vacations, until I actually started doing ministry and realized how taking time to rest and refresh can be crucial to your spiritual health, relationship with God, and your ministry. Now, I think vacations are very good as long as you're not taking 'a vacation away from God' of course.
I tend to put a lot of pressure on myself and rush and try to multi-task. That can be good when you're working the Tim Hortons drive-thru but in the course of every day life, it can just be plain stressful and the mistakes made can be costly. I've been a micro-manager and an over-thinker, and I'm not sure that those qualities have actually been beneficial to me or anyone around me.
     I've decided to take a deep breath and enjoy Jesus. The deepest desire of my heart is to serve Him and live a life full of service, but I don't want my charity to others to be fueled by my concern to get things done. I don't want to act just out of good intention, but by His conviction. I want my actions to be a fruit of the intimacy that I have with God, or else I feel that they are just dead works produced by my own desperate efforts. I want so much to just enjoy Jesus and see what happens. I want to lay down at His feet, seek His face and be led by Him.


If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 1 Corinthians 13:1-3 (NASV)